Internet Addiction — April 8th, 2015

A few years ago Russell Brand published a brutally authentic post on The Guardian called My Life Without Drugs.

There’s a particular thing he said that I’ve never been able to shake from my memory and I’m fairly positive I know exactly why that is.

Drugs and alcohol are not my problem, reality is my problem, drugs and alcohol are my solution.

I have so many reactions that I want to share about what he wrote — some shocking, some embarrassing — most of which you might judge me on.

Russell’s authenticity is set from the start, as he opens up immediately:

The last time I thought about taking heroin was yesterday.

I don’t know about you, but I formulated an opinion on him and his character fairly quickly. But it didn’t take long for me to realize I was calling the kettle black.

It’s easy to look at what he said at face value, but I’d be lying if I said I wasn’t the very least bit convicted. I struggle with a number of things, and my drug of choice isn’t the same as his — for me, it’s the internet.

Every minute of every day I feel the need to inject myself with time online. Whether it be email, social media or simply whatever “fix” I can get.

If I’m away from the computer, I go through withdrawal. I find excuses like running upstairs or going to the bathroom to check in. Thankfully, this ubiquitous issue we have has a way of being controlled.

Nonetheless, I need to accept that my identity away from the internet is sometimes a stranger to me — and that it’s critical I recapture who I am.

Because, in the moment, I’m currently living with this truth:

The internet is not my problem, reality is my problem, and the internet is my solution.

So for now, I’m going to lay down my stone and cut Russell some slack. Because he understands, and is doing the same for me.